Then they were gone… or so I thought!
The unforgiveness and anger brought
on by years
of deception and hurts
but most of all fears.
But where did they go?
Even I didn’t know.
Can they really disappear and be erased?
Or do they just hang around in their own space
waiting to make an entrance all their own.
For so many years they’ve been around
like comfortable friends
laughing, smiling, resentful and frowning.
Without understanding I welcomed them in,
into my world foe or friend.
What does it take?
And what’s at stake
for them to leave and never return?
They’re visible and invisible and have more power than can be told.
They’re arrows, daggers and weapons
that pierce my soul.
I can’t run away there’s nowhere to hide,
everything I’m running from is deep inside.
What a revelation to discover
memories from long ago
buried and then uncovered.
Revealing truths or lies long forgotten.
For our souls are as mountain lakes, deep and wide,
where sparkling treasures and rusted junk lie;
waiting to surface, surprising all around,
brought on by a simple smell or a sound
from years ago.
Remembering can be a source of joy or pain
regret or gain.
Life, in a flash, can rip and tear
not caring what’s yours or mine.
But healing, that which is hidden deep in our souls, takes time.
We all have choices to make.
And with emotions riding high and low
we can take
each regret to the Lord.
God continuously reveals
those hurts and pains we have concealed.
Then we must forgive all those involved
and allow Him to solve
our griefs and sorrows with His love.
As we leave them at God’s feet,
His Grace is sufficient to meet
every need both present and past.
Now at last
our souls can fly free
to live and experience
the unique creation
we are meant to be.
DU ‘07